I got problems.

I am distracted,
loosing it,
overwhelmed, maybe?

This last week I have been misplacing things, forgetting what I was doing (because I am doing too many things at once perhaps).
You know, putting the milk away in the cupboard type of thing.

Nothing too serious at first but as the end of the week came, my stupidity intensified.

Friday I did the math incorrectly for Hailey’s insulin dose and gave her an extra unit of insulin, which luckily I realized shortly after and remedied with a fun size pack of M and Ms.
Then the next day I completely forgot to check her mid morning.
I was 2 hours late on her evening dose of insulin.
COMPLETELY forgot my child was diabetic for a few hours.

Sunday while making some cakes (in an oven with no timer), I turned the timer on the microwave on and went downstairs to tend to my screaming children. About 35 minutes later, I went upstairs to check on my cake and was met with a REALLY bad smell and lots of smoke. Upon further examination realized I had not turned on the microwave timer but turned on the microwave instead.
With nothing in it.
And left it on for a half hour.
And caught it just before it burst into flames.
And it ruined the microwave.

That was really stupid.

This morning, I forgot to wake Jonas up early for orchestra.
I put sugar syrup on Hailey's waffle and sugar free on Caleb's (luckily realized the blunder in time.)
Then as I was backing out of the driveway to take the kids to school I took extra precaution to look behind me so I didn't hit a child walking to school.

Because my track record is going that well.

As I was taking extra care to look behind me, I neglected to look beside me and hit the side mirror on the garage and
BUSTED IT OFF.

I am officially grounding myself from using sharp objects and operating heavy machinery.

Also I am not cooking dinner.

I am not even sure I should be caring for my children at this point.

I plan to resume normal life again soon, just as soon as increased stupidity levels off.

Lets hope it does.

my days

The days in December are racing by.
They are filled.
Filled with important things like
trips to Hailey's school checking glucose levels
and giving insulin injections,
nightly phone calls with the doctor asking questions and changing insulin ratios,
endocrinologist appointments,
meetings with school nurses, phone calls/battles with insurance companies,
and a few trips downtown to the diabetes specialties store for some ridiculously priced necessities.

but i would go crazy if if focused on all of that.

so i fill may days
with even more important things like

Coloring in giant Christmas coloring books with my kids.
Watching old videos of past Christmases.
Making brownies with massive amounts of frosting.
Picking out our annual ornaments at the Christmas village.
Watching barbie movies with Caleb. (yes I said CALEB. you have no idea how deep his devotion is to his sister.)
Enjoying candle light dinners.
Making paper snowflakes.
Wrapping presents.
Playing with playdoh.
Watching the boys shovel snow while listening to the sound of my heart singing praises that I can finally enjoy life with a garage to park my car in.
Singing Christmas songs over and over and over and over and over and....

and generally just loving that fact that I get to enjoy Christmastime with kids.


Because Christmas is not the same without them.

Reality

Have you ever heard it said that the state of your house reflects the state of your life?



For me that has never been more true.

There is just a lot of junk on my table. And I am writing this not to complain, just to tell you how it is. I know we all have a lot of junk on our tables at different times and you all know how that is.

And if you don't, then gear up my friend, because you are just in the calm before the storm.